Just a quick update:
The second I called mom the whole "I'm not crying thing" went out the window. I'm so stressed out and I just want this to be over so I can go home! (I'm a girl - so I'm allowed to cry and admit it freely.)
Mom said she didn't mix Ibuprofen (one of the things in the Robax) and Tylenol, but that I should call a pharmacist. I called the Health Link and she said that I could take Tylenol and Ibuprofen together, but not the muscle relaxant part of the Robax. So, I happened to have both Tylenol and Ibuprofen on hand (shocking, really) and I took that. Its really sad that in the last few years the ONLY thing I've called the health link about is dosages and combinations of medication. Why am I such a mess?
Please help my headache to go away...
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Too stressed to think of something witty
I knew this would happen. It always does. I think I'm doing so well studying and focusing, and a couple of exams go well and then I hit the wall. I get overwhelmed by what I need to know, and realize I don't have time to learn. By tomorrow I need to know the following:
1. Who is "the historical Jesus"?
2. What does it say about him in Matthew?
3. What does it say about him in Mark?
4. What does it say about him in Luke?
5. What does it say about him in John?
6. What are the messages of Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, 1,2,3 John, and Revelation?
7. Anything and everything about the Psychology of Adolescents
8. 5 Chapters of a text book that I haven't picked up since the last midterm in November.
The problem is that I don't have time to know everything well enough. I could handle it if both exams were all mulitple choice. Multiple choice is easy. But no, I have to write essays and short answers. I have to come up with the information myself, "to make sure that you know it" they say, "because we want to test you on what you DO know, not what you don't," they say. Well I have something to say about that! Asking me to know this much information is like asking me to pour all the water in a lake into one glass. In tiny amounts it might work, and eventually you could empty the lake, but it is impossible to know it all at the same time. And it makes my life hell for several days. And no one can really sympathize. Those that are going to write the same tests as I am don't want to or have time to sympathize, because they're going through their own hell, and those that aren't writing any exams give me the "you'll do fine, you've studied so hard" crap. I want someone to suffer with me, not thousands of other students, but someone who is mine to torture with my stress-outs.
A few other things that I'd like to complain about? I've had a headache for the last 2 days that the doctors bloody "Robax Platinum" is doing nothing for. It is on the right side of my brain, which is new and fun, and it goes down the back of my neck into my shoulder. How is this possible? Simple. When you're sitting at a computer staring at a bright screen or sitting on a couch holding your head at a weird angle so that you can see both your notes and the freaking textbook at the same time, your eye muscles and your neck and back muscles get twisted strangely and if you're me, you get a headache that never goes away and which has had no effective treatement for the last 6 years. Another thing? I think I'm getting carpal tunnel syndrom or whatever the heck you call it. (I'm not typing this in Word, so its going to have tons of mistakes, but if I stare at one more word document I'm going to cry probably, so I thought it best to skip that part). My wrists hurt from typing and writing, because for me to study effectively I have to do more than just read the information, I need to write it and categorize it, and make notes or flashcards. I need to physcially learn it using more movement than just the scanning of my eyes. So, now my fingers and my wrists hurt. Physically, studying is worse for me than climing a mountain, I think!
Ok, I've sort of calmed down. I was feeling completely overwhelmed and almost broke down and cried 15 minutes ago. I was all of a sudden all hot and stuffy feeling, and now I think I might be able to study for a few more hours with the help of Robax Platinum and copius amounts of Tylenol. I'm going to call mom and see if its ok to mix those.
I still have no idea how I'm going to do well on my tests tomorrow. (a little sob)
1. Who is "the historical Jesus"?
2. What does it say about him in Matthew?
3. What does it say about him in Mark?
4. What does it say about him in Luke?
5. What does it say about him in John?
6. What are the messages of Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, 1,2,3 John, and Revelation?
7. Anything and everything about the Psychology of Adolescents
8. 5 Chapters of a text book that I haven't picked up since the last midterm in November.
The problem is that I don't have time to know everything well enough. I could handle it if both exams were all mulitple choice. Multiple choice is easy. But no, I have to write essays and short answers. I have to come up with the information myself, "to make sure that you know it" they say, "because we want to test you on what you DO know, not what you don't," they say. Well I have something to say about that! Asking me to know this much information is like asking me to pour all the water in a lake into one glass. In tiny amounts it might work, and eventually you could empty the lake, but it is impossible to know it all at the same time. And it makes my life hell for several days. And no one can really sympathize. Those that are going to write the same tests as I am don't want to or have time to sympathize, because they're going through their own hell, and those that aren't writing any exams give me the "you'll do fine, you've studied so hard" crap. I want someone to suffer with me, not thousands of other students, but someone who is mine to torture with my stress-outs.
A few other things that I'd like to complain about? I've had a headache for the last 2 days that the doctors bloody "Robax Platinum" is doing nothing for. It is on the right side of my brain, which is new and fun, and it goes down the back of my neck into my shoulder. How is this possible? Simple. When you're sitting at a computer staring at a bright screen or sitting on a couch holding your head at a weird angle so that you can see both your notes and the freaking textbook at the same time, your eye muscles and your neck and back muscles get twisted strangely and if you're me, you get a headache that never goes away and which has had no effective treatement for the last 6 years. Another thing? I think I'm getting carpal tunnel syndrom or whatever the heck you call it. (I'm not typing this in Word, so its going to have tons of mistakes, but if I stare at one more word document I'm going to cry probably, so I thought it best to skip that part). My wrists hurt from typing and writing, because for me to study effectively I have to do more than just read the information, I need to write it and categorize it, and make notes or flashcards. I need to physcially learn it using more movement than just the scanning of my eyes. So, now my fingers and my wrists hurt. Physically, studying is worse for me than climing a mountain, I think!
Ok, I've sort of calmed down. I was feeling completely overwhelmed and almost broke down and cried 15 minutes ago. I was all of a sudden all hot and stuffy feeling, and now I think I might be able to study for a few more hours with the help of Robax Platinum and copius amounts of Tylenol. I'm going to call mom and see if its ok to mix those.
I still have no idea how I'm going to do well on my tests tomorrow. (a little sob)
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
A little evaluation
Well, I have 3 exams left and I really should be studying for one, or all of them. I had to do some running around this morning, and I picked up a couple of Christmas presents, and then I had to wrap them, because I love wrapping presents, and then decorating them with ribbon and bows and fun name tags. Now I have 5 presents under my Christmas tree (which will be going home with me on Friday).
I’ve been thinking a lot about this last year. Evaluating it I guess. It was certainly not a bad year, but it sure wasn’t perfect either. So, here is a list (as usual) in semi-chronological order.
Good things:
Moved in with Erica
Finished second last year of school
Awesome job for summer (and now part time)
Traveled to: Calgary, Banff, Grande Prairie, Vauxhall, Irma
New Nephew! James!
Interesting classes this semester
Sewing machine – now I can learn!
Christmas decorating.
Christmas music.
Not perfect things:
Bridget getting run over. I miss her. (she was a dog, in case anyone was wondering)
Annoying lazy people.
First real boyfriend – not the worst thing, but not perfect.
Ending things with aforementioned person.
Midterms, Finals, Papers – anything that requires me to study or work hard for school
I’m sure there’s tons more good things, and a few more less-than-good things. I can add them later. I guess that I should get back to work.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this last year. Evaluating it I guess. It was certainly not a bad year, but it sure wasn’t perfect either. So, here is a list (as usual) in semi-chronological order.
Good things:
Moved in with Erica
Finished second last year of school
Awesome job for summer (and now part time)
Traveled to: Calgary, Banff, Grande Prairie, Vauxhall, Irma
New Nephew! James!
Interesting classes this semester
Sewing machine – now I can learn!
Christmas decorating.
Christmas music.
Not perfect things:
Bridget getting run over. I miss her. (she was a dog, in case anyone was wondering)
Annoying lazy people.
First real boyfriend – not the worst thing, but not perfect.
Ending things with aforementioned person.
Midterms, Finals, Papers – anything that requires me to study or work hard for school
I’m sure there’s tons more good things, and a few more less-than-good things. I can add them later. I guess that I should get back to work.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Regarding Survivor
After watching Survivor sporadically over the last few years, I’ve been thinking. Tonight is, of course, the finale of this season. I started watching it the first year I lived in Edmonton (2002), because my roommate at the time really liked it, so its what was on Thursday evenings. Then I watched it because other friends really liked it. I always went to "Survivor night" because of the socialization part of the evening. I don’t hate the show, don’t get me wrong. I get involved, and I start liking people and wishing others were voted off, but at the same time I was never NOT able to blow it off for a test or something. Tonight I was watching it (funny because I have a final tomorrow and I really should be totally focused on that), and I realized that I have finally decided what my favorite part is. I like the endurance challenges. Some people think that they’re boring, but I think they’re the best! Whatever happens, there is no “bad luck” involved. Its not a competition against anyone, but against oneself. No one can do better or worse as a result of another person, it’s just one person versus time, with very few variables to affect the outcome. Its very clean, cut and dry, simple.
Or maybe its just that I like watching people suffer in agony. I prefer the first idea though.
Or maybe its just that I like watching people suffer in agony. I prefer the first idea though.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Strange Days
It’s not a normal Saturday that I am up at 7:45 am. It’s not a normal day period when, at 7:45 am, I’ve already been up for almost 4 hours. (As a side note, I am now typing my posts out in Microsoft Word because someone noticed the spelling and grammar mistakes in the previous posts, and I wouldn’t want to ruin anyone’s reading experience due to my poor spelling and grammar).
What I have done today (in detail):
1. 4:00 am – got up
2. made coffee
3. 4:40 am – leave apartment with Erica
4. 4:45 am – pick up Denise, wash off lights with leftover snow (all dirty because of melting snow and wet roads)
5. 4:55 am – pick up Carolyn, drive to Airport
6. 5:30 am – drop off girls at Airport, hug them, wish I was going with them to California!
7. 5:35 am – drove away, sort of sad, sort of excited
8. 6:00 am – arrived back at apartment, not super tired, so I separated “clean” and “dirty” clothes for laundry later (bank doesn’t open till 10, and I need loonies and quarters, so I have to go get some before I can do laundry)
9. I also emptied all the garbage cans in my apartment
10. I also opened the sliding door, turned on the Christmas lights (outside and on tree) and aired my apartment out. For some reason it felt like it was 30 degrees in here.
11. Cleaned off my desk
12. Organized the stuff I have to study for finals next week.
13. Printed off notes from last midterm for my Ed. Psych class (I’ve been pretty much the opposite of a keener in that class – I figure the prof is lucky I attend. ha ha)
14. Realize that I’m out of black ink again. I might as well just stock up, I don’t know why it always disappears so fast… make a note to buy some later when I go to the bank.
15. Decide that I’m not quite tired enough to nap, so I write in this blog, and listen to the Varsity Blues soundtrack. (I love soundtracks, and this one is a classic).
So, as you can tee, I’m extremely efficient when I want to be. It’s really quiet around here, but it’s Saturday morning too, so I’m not sad yet. Now I have to separate darks and lights, and make a list of “stuff to buy” for Sunday School tomorrow. I’m teaching my own class, but also sub-ing for Carolyn in the other service, and its “celebration Sunday” meaning that I have to plan fun stuff for both classes to do. I’m thinking timbits, (coffee for me), maybe some Yahtzee and UNO (UNO does involve cards, so that could be a problem in a Baptist church.) Maybe I’ll find a website with some fun “icebreaker” games. I should get candy canes too, and a present for the girl who memorized the most verses this fall. So much to do!
In other news, and more generally, life has been pretty good lately. Classes ended, I have 4 finals this week, none that I am ready for yet, but that’s why it’s good that it is quiet around here. I’m pretty stoked for Friday, when I drive home! (Of course, its supposed to snow the whole way). I’m going home for over 3 weeks, which is almost a month! That means that I have to pack with this in mind. I have major issues with “over packing.” I am not a “one small suitcase and my carry on is a purse” sort of girl. I know girls like this, and I don’t know who I got this problem from, but its just something I must endure. I’m to the point where I figure, why fight it?
Ok, I’m starting to fade. I’m going to go have a nap before the sun comes up and the stores start opening. Good night!
What I have done today (in detail):
1. 4:00 am – got up
2. made coffee
3. 4:40 am – leave apartment with Erica
4. 4:45 am – pick up Denise, wash off lights with leftover snow (all dirty because of melting snow and wet roads)
5. 4:55 am – pick up Carolyn, drive to Airport
6. 5:30 am – drop off girls at Airport, hug them, wish I was going with them to California!
7. 5:35 am – drove away, sort of sad, sort of excited
8. 6:00 am – arrived back at apartment, not super tired, so I separated “clean” and “dirty” clothes for laundry later (bank doesn’t open till 10, and I need loonies and quarters, so I have to go get some before I can do laundry)
9. I also emptied all the garbage cans in my apartment
10. I also opened the sliding door, turned on the Christmas lights (outside and on tree) and aired my apartment out. For some reason it felt like it was 30 degrees in here.
11. Cleaned off my desk
12. Organized the stuff I have to study for finals next week.
13. Printed off notes from last midterm for my Ed. Psych class (I’ve been pretty much the opposite of a keener in that class – I figure the prof is lucky I attend. ha ha)
14. Realize that I’m out of black ink again. I might as well just stock up, I don’t know why it always disappears so fast… make a note to buy some later when I go to the bank.
15. Decide that I’m not quite tired enough to nap, so I write in this blog, and listen to the Varsity Blues soundtrack. (I love soundtracks, and this one is a classic).
So, as you can tee, I’m extremely efficient when I want to be. It’s really quiet around here, but it’s Saturday morning too, so I’m not sad yet. Now I have to separate darks and lights, and make a list of “stuff to buy” for Sunday School tomorrow. I’m teaching my own class, but also sub-ing for Carolyn in the other service, and its “celebration Sunday” meaning that I have to plan fun stuff for both classes to do. I’m thinking timbits, (coffee for me), maybe some Yahtzee and UNO (UNO does involve cards, so that could be a problem in a Baptist church.) Maybe I’ll find a website with some fun “icebreaker” games. I should get candy canes too, and a present for the girl who memorized the most verses this fall. So much to do!
In other news, and more generally, life has been pretty good lately. Classes ended, I have 4 finals this week, none that I am ready for yet, but that’s why it’s good that it is quiet around here. I’m pretty stoked for Friday, when I drive home! (Of course, its supposed to snow the whole way). I’m going home for over 3 weeks, which is almost a month! That means that I have to pack with this in mind. I have major issues with “over packing.” I am not a “one small suitcase and my carry on is a purse” sort of girl. I know girls like this, and I don’t know who I got this problem from, but its just something I must endure. I’m to the point where I figure, why fight it?
Ok, I’m starting to fade. I’m going to go have a nap before the sun comes up and the stores start opening. Good night!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Comments again
So, I've decided to re-enable comments. They have a word verification thing now, and hopefully it will stop the spam that loves to attach itself to my blog.
Have a good day all!
Have a good day all!
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Go Party Girl
So, I was at a real live party tonight. I do a lot of low-key "hanging with the girls" partying, but this one was a real live dance-till-1:30 to a stereo that is way to loud type of party. And it was really fun. I haven't partied where there was no movies or television watching occuring in a very long time, and this semester I REALLY haven't, so I was naturally a bit skeptical. Would I have fun? I literally knew NO ONE except Rosie, and I went purely for her benefit, because she knew only one person too. So, for the first while it was a bit quiet, people talking, but not to us, or if it was to us then it was pretty sporadic. Then we started dancing a bit, and then we found a super-fun song, which will remain anonymous, and then everyone was dancing, and then who cares who you know? FUN TIMES. In any case, I was going to stay home and study tonight, but I'm glad I did this instead. It's not everyday that you get to go to a strangers birthday. Happy Birthday Tim!
Now tomorrow I can really buckle down and study hard. I'm looking forward to it in an end-of-the-year-is-finally-near sort of way. 14 days from now I will be sleeping in my bed at my parents, and it will be Christmas break. Dad will wake me up on December 17th with a coffee, and I will go upstairs, and sit and eat breakfast and chat with mom and dad, and I will be so happy. Tomorrow will be my first day studying for a final exam, and so its like the beginning of the end. When I come back to school on the 9th, it will be the beginning of my LAST semester. After 6 years, its going to feel GREAT. Beyond belief. Its sort of a surreal thought. When I graduate, I will have been a student for 19 years, and Lord willing I'll go back to school a teacher in the fall.
Its 2:00 a.m. I feel like such a teenager! I stay up late so rarely that it seems strange. My roommates are asleep, but I'm not even that tired. Maybe I'll go see whats on tv... one thing thats great about dancing is its really good exercize. I weighed myself when I got home, and I weighed like 5 pounds LESS than this morning. Its supposed to be the opposite. I'm also parched, so my genius scientific mind is telling me that any weight I lost was not fat, but actually water. I'm so smart. SMRT.
I'm going to go fill up my glass of water and go to bed I think. My theory is that I'm actually a lot more tired than I currently feel, and that it won't take me long to fall asleep in reality.
Good night all!
-Party Girl...
Now tomorrow I can really buckle down and study hard. I'm looking forward to it in an end-of-the-year-is-finally-near sort of way. 14 days from now I will be sleeping in my bed at my parents, and it will be Christmas break. Dad will wake me up on December 17th with a coffee, and I will go upstairs, and sit and eat breakfast and chat with mom and dad, and I will be so happy. Tomorrow will be my first day studying for a final exam, and so its like the beginning of the end. When I come back to school on the 9th, it will be the beginning of my LAST semester. After 6 years, its going to feel GREAT. Beyond belief. Its sort of a surreal thought. When I graduate, I will have been a student for 19 years, and Lord willing I'll go back to school a teacher in the fall.
Its 2:00 a.m. I feel like such a teenager! I stay up late so rarely that it seems strange. My roommates are asleep, but I'm not even that tired. Maybe I'll go see whats on tv... one thing thats great about dancing is its really good exercize. I weighed myself when I got home, and I weighed like 5 pounds LESS than this morning. Its supposed to be the opposite. I'm also parched, so my genius scientific mind is telling me that any weight I lost was not fat, but actually water. I'm so smart. SMRT.
I'm going to go fill up my glass of water and go to bed I think. My theory is that I'm actually a lot more tired than I currently feel, and that it won't take me long to fall asleep in reality.
Good night all!
-Party Girl...
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